I stood on my toes

Mon, 02 Feb 2009 01:27:12 GMT

For the whole of CNY, I am only around for 2 freaking days! Ok 3, if you consider the touch down day.
I was called up to be away for another 8 days after being away for a week. I am on the verge of turning back which I did not because I know I cannot be.
It is really frustrating for many many reasons.

1. I didn't have enough sleep.
2. I have yet to pack.
3. But that's not really reasons why. I am so not mentally and physically prepared to go!
4. My phone rang 7:30am I finish my house chores within an hour, including dusting, vacuum and mopping!
5. I have to brisk to mum's home.
6. Pack enough to sustain and yet to paint my nails.
7. Couldn't nap thus typing this now. Too many things on my mind!
8. With this unexpected mission, we are not seeing each other for 17 days!! That's OUR record! And when we became husband and wife!!
9. With this little bit of time, I wanted to talk to him but he has gone to golden bridge ALONE!

10. I am so DON'T WANT TO GO!

11. I am sooooo missing him.

I wanna be back soon. :(

Finally!!

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 16:47:20 GMT

Be checking out in an hour time!

Had ample rest and geared for the lined up weekend!

I am SOOOO can't wait to get home!!

Wish me a smooth flight! *wink*

the sensitive issue

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 18:37:04 GMT

Whenever mentioned about savings, i felt so ashamed. Need not even talk about financial planning. I have chocked to the max for all credit cards and now slowly clearing the past debts.

Today, my hubby wanted me to surrender all my credit card bills to him. I was 百分的不愿意! He said he rather the interests goes to his account. and told me that it is a favor for him that will help him to plan for the future. He also asked for a spreadsheet of my fixed expenses. I am very glad for a able-to-plan-for-rainy-days husband. It feels sense of stability and security. However, at the bottom of my heart, I am not so ready for someone to keep track the daily expenses of mine yet!

Funny, it's fear I am encountering now. Weird, you may find me.

I survived all these while on my very own way and I MUST say that I REALLY managed better these days!

Sigh. Perhaps, I really need his help, the proper way.

For the Wardrobe.

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 17:46:51 GMT

Love the green jacket from Pull & Bear, Dubai.
It's a happy purchase! And with discount!!

*can't help smiling*

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 14:43:41 GMT

Finally I get to check in to the Angsana Suites that so many raved about. Just like a 1 room flat, a nicer name would be an apartment with its own kitchen, living room and bedroom. The kitchen consists of a huge fridge, washing machine, hob and hood too! For a moment, it does make me feel like home. I got a little excited that I quickly get my phone snapping away before I would mess it. YEAH for the complimentary wireless internet access that I be connected everywhere in the suite.

Then again to my disappointment, I just could not make successful call from skype to my beloved hubby who is now in Shanghai. :( It probably due to the very slow connection here. The worse was that it had been connected and the credit was deducted!

I want to talk to him!

The first time as husband and wife, we will be parted for the at least the next 10 days. *sulking* and *pouting*

Why does skype just didn't work today! Urgh!!

婚后生活怎么样？

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 18:39:50 GMT

暴饮暴食！

Love Talk..

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 07:26:53 GMT

Heee.....

nellez is old fashion says: (3:23:48 PM)
love u hubby!!

SLaCker says: (3:24:04 PM)
k

nellez is old fashion says: (3:24:13 PM)
huh?

SLaCker says: (3:24:20 PM)
ha

nellez is old fashion says: (3:24:23 PM)
dear

SLaCker says: (3:24:32 PM)
love u 2 ...my wife

nellez is old fashion says: (3:24:33 PM)
u look so charming on the photos and videos!!

nellez is old fashion says: (3:24:37 PM)
woohoo

SLaCker says: (3:24:58 PM)
stupid u

SLaCker says: (3:25:10 PM)
u keep looking and looking

SLaCker says: (3:25:11 PM)
siao huh

nellez is old fashion says: (3:25:22 PM)
haha

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 17:59:07 GMT

Everyday, every minute and seconds, I try to keep memories of 10th Jan 09.
Cos it's so lovely that I am writing and missing it and talking about it with my girlfriends. Please bear with me. I watched the slideshows too many times. I watched the video too many times. Sometimes, I watched the photo montage too. Please bear with me.

It all begin, supposedly to wake up at 5:30am in the morning, however, I woke up only when May (my make-up artist) arrived!! That's around 6am. I took a quick shower and all ready to for the dolling up! Alex, the videographer was the next to arrive and he happened to work with May before. Soon after Alex, naggy Joe came! And my room became merry immediately cos all three of them knew one another and were pretty familiar! The joyous atmosphere, thus, began!!

I don't know how to continue.

My sisters came one after another in their pretty dresses...

On the day, I had the stress, the hiccups and anything an actual day can happen.

But I know! I know I was in good hands! I thank again to all my wonderful sisters! Photos with all of you are soooooo beautiful, and naturally cute!!
Namely... Qing, Ying, Annie, Yan, Wenda, Sally, Peifeng and Gabie!! I am so loving you girls!!

And all the boys... I knew you are fulfilling my dream of the biggest, longest and loudest YUM SENG!! I am so touched!! I love you all too!!

I wish I am good at writing, so that I can write a column of our beautiful day... on every little bit that happens! And so I could express myself better here....

All I could say, it's lovely! Thank you!! HUGS!
一想起那天的每一刻，就感觉很激昂，兴奋，感动！！天真的希望可以在脑海里留住所有美丽的画面。我好幸福哦！！！

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 09:57:10 GMT

The morning gatecrash highlight is so funny that I have watched it like MANY times!!

The link to the photo slideshow of the morning event is so beautiful, that I knew it even helps Da Bian to relief stress at work!

Thank you to all beautiful people...

I am missing everything on the day....

Happy Lovely 2009!

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:38:55 GMT

Happy New Year Everyone!! It's another 2.5 hours more to go in London to 2009!!

I had my New Year dinner provided at the hotel and the whole set of crew attended. All Dressed Up!!
I had wild mushroom soup with truffle oil as starter, some fish in thai basil sauce and a double choclate bla bla bla for dessert! Ha! Accompanied with a little sweet and spicy red wine, and the girls are snapping away with whichever camera they have in hand.

It all ended well. The only thing was it is already morning in Singapore that most of us are feeling goggy already...

And thus, this post will end my day and i'll sleep through the countdown in my dream.
It gonna be early check out tomorrow!!

Tonight, I learnt about the 3Rs. Reflection, to take more Risk and being able to Reinvest in something that comes with legacy.
Some food for thought in the new year.

*Hugs!* I shall see all of you in 2009!

That's When I Love You

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 08:03:56 GMT

Aslyn - That's When I Love You ,

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you...endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Because the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time

And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know

And when you forget that we had a date
That look that u give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn the more i love
The more my heart can't get enough
Thats when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

No matter what...

This X'mas Week.Blessed and Loved.

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 18:28:58 GMT

This festive week was lined with gatherings and parties. I had reasonable amount of fun on each day.
First was dinner at Chomp Chomp with the secondary buddies after I returned from Paris. The actual agenda is to distribute my wedding invitation and I must say they looked excited in receiving, at least in my eyes. =p The dessert later litted my weary eyes!! It's yummy!! It's called Alcoholic Anonyous... so rummy....

The second night was the annual X'mas gathering with VB girls. The dinner was great! The gift exchange was GREAT DEAL of FUN!! We almost hovered the whole Waraku with our laughters of excitement! It did not feel like we are all in our late twenties already! Oh sooo fun.... The later part of the night was ok... even it's a little tiring....

I love how I spent X'mas eve this year. It was buffet at Traders with my first teammates in my flying career follow by a family gathering at my aunty's place and thereafter, a KTV session with my first teammates again. The gatherings were short. But it's fine, it's the quality of time we spent together and not the amount, isn't it? My time with the first team was short. However, we had great time spent together on every team flying.

I am still strong and very positive.

I do still believe, everything will fall in place for me....

Thank you for the love everyone!

I felt spoilt and loved. Thank you for the big effort and small touch.

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 17:42:00 GMT

I need to become private, to disconnect with the world around me.
Nothing went wrong but it feels frustrating.

Everything just gets onto my nerves.
I need a break. I am deprived of alcohol. Gin & Tonic used to be my favorite.

There seemed no meaning.
There's no meaning at all.

Just do whatever you want, I am already not happy. Well, if it makes you feel better, then go ahead.
What's the point?

Need some space. Need some hugs. Need some sleep. Need some gin. Need some trance.
I am tired.

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 17:55:11 GMT

It's gathering, dinners, party for all 3 days.

I need to hide away my weariness and attend them with a festive mood.

The last parties before I turn MRS.

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 04:41:46 GMT

I made my mum cry.....

Past and Problem

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 01:41:46 GMT

Why human brood over.....

THE PAST?

When everyone has his/ her past and past is already past?
You have a past, I have a past, she has a past and he has past... A past that you will not tell on how one look, how this person dresses...
It's unfair to judge a person by his/ her past!

THE PROBLEM?

When problem is already a problem? How do you forget it?
Problems are meant to be solved and not avoided, even if it's going to take numbers of years to solve these problems.
Problems do not resolved themselves also NOT just by believing in religiously, or get a fortune teller to change your names or your luck. It complies one's efforts, one's energy and strength to first accept that it's a problem and face it then try to solve it the correct way!

I need a break.

Hug me on my wedding day.

Tue, 16 Dec 2008 06:16:06 GMT

Da Bian's wedding was on last Sunday. I was called up a few days before to replace a sister for her. It's been an hounor.
Even though it's a small wedding with minimum number of people, it has been a cosy one.
I always looked forward to such small dinner for my own wedding, with a few tables of closest friends and relatives, and performance by the live band to celebrate on our special day.

Well, maybe it's really difficult for the elderly to understand the so-called young people like us.

There's one thing I realised which is very important on the wedding day was, we did not manage to provide the bride an assurance. It probably would have caused her panic, stress and weariness. Kind of feeling bad about it.

I think I have forgotten to give her a hug when she needed most.

Everyone, please give me a hug on my wedding day. I need many of it. Rather, a bride would need lots of it...

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 13:44:37 GMT

I could not get hold of anyone, I really need to talk. They are probably very caught up. It's ok, I can understand, totally.

It's been a great year. However, this last quater of 2008 was too much drama. I did not know how I made it through. The time passes everyday, so hectic, so involved. Everyday, I expect myself and thus always pretending to be positive, to accept the facts, to think sensibly. Maybe it has done me good. Maybe it really made me a steadier person.

Today, however, I almost lost all of them.

I need to stand on my feet.

The Main Purpose of the Dick Bag

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 16:53:59 GMT

House-hubby tonight.

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 14:51:31 GMT

And guess what... I just came back like less than 3 hours ago. We had a quick dinner and came home to try to clean up the house before Bobby and wife visit. But, the arrived before we can complete the cleaning.

They left after a short while.

Mr Koh has just finish vacuumed the floor and he is, now, changing the bed linen. And I am sitting on the comfy dick bag typing this post.
Heeeee.......

Wed, 03 Dec 2008 12:24:44 GMT

I couldn't explain. My tears roll uncontrollably. I could not handle it this time after chasing her news since the misfortune, to seeing his breakdown.
http://www.asiaone.com/News/The%2BNew%2BPaper/Story/A1Story20081202-104992.html

sending my respects from London...

When he asked how much I paid for the band...

Tue, 02 Dec 2008 16:10:37 GMT

SLaCker says:
so ..hoW much then
nellez says:
$800
SLaCker says:
u heart pain ?
nellez says:
hmm....
nellez says:
money can earn back one.... it's partly for my mum also
SLaCker says:
huh
SLaCker says:
y leh ?
nellez says:
she likes.... i also like, but never thought of it till she mention
SLaCker says:
ok
nellez says:
so i begin to ask around lor
nellez says:
i am still young.. i still can earn money
SLaCker says:
ya
SLaCker says:
u wan to be housewife
nellez says:
when i give birth lor
nellez says:
i am not giving birth yet what
nellez says:
;p
nellez says:
not next year
nellez says:
not year aft next
nellez says:
i got 2 years!
nellez says:
u dun want tiger kid mah
nellez says:
i want my gratuity
nellez says:
so it's still another 2 years later
SLaCker says:
Angry!
nellez says:
:p
SLaCker says:
ok loH
SLaCker says:
u happy can liao

And a moment later...

SLaCker says:
Angry!
SLaCker says:
i wan baby gal
nellez says:
ya
nellez says:
2 years later lor!

Hello Kowloon

Mon, 24 Nov 2008 18:53:52 GMT

Just couldn't get enough of it.

yet, back to track.

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 18:21:37 GMT

I feel so much better after talking to them- my batch girls. Perhaps that is also the reason why. We seemed to be able to understand one another's situation and consideration, better than friends who are from a different environment as us.

I think I would really enjoy what the job scope has to offer despite of the company welfare or benefits. Anyway, we have already been through one, haven't we?

Fear is unavoidable. 要加油哦！

No?

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 17:26:15 GMT

Can I have best of both worlds? Hm......... nah..... I am talking about blogs.